My Prayer to God in the Middle of the Night – His Reply

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Dear Heavenly Father,

I need to talk to you about a few things. It seems like all I do is work hard for my children and my family. I cook and clean, and yet my house is always a mess. My furniture is old and crappy. I spend sleepless nights up with the baby and all I get in return is sleep-deprivation and spit up or poop all over me. I try to be a gentle parent and what happens? I get defiant little poopy- head attitude in return. I have no social life and I barely get to see my friends. On top of it all, I berate myself daily for not doing it all better. I judge myself for being a stressed out mess! My husband deserves a better wife. My children deserve a better Mother and my friends deserve someone who can be more available. What should I do?

With all humility,

Your Earthly Daughter

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Dear Earthly Daughter,

Don’t stress. Instead be grateful. All these things that stress you out are my blessings to you.

Be grateful that I did not fill your home with expensive things. Maybe someday you will have those things, but for now, I have filled your home with love instead.

Be grateful that your floors are dirty. It is from healthy children running in and out from their play.

Be happy that the sink is full of dishes. They are there to remind you of the plentiful food I have provided for you.

Be grateful for the nights of little sleep. Remember that in the few hours that you do sleep, you sleep in the arms of your loved ones. And now, in these wee hours of the quiet night, that is when I can speak to you.

Be grateful for the milk spilled on the table and the applesauce on the floor. Your 3-year old daughter now knows what happens when she mixes the two together in a bowl and you are reminded of the miraculous, inquisitive mind she possesses.

Be happy that your children question your authority. Remember I have chosen you to guide them, but they belong to me. I am proud of their independence. It means they will not be easily swayed from my embrace.

Be grateful for friends that you rarely get to see. It should remind you that your life is full… and you still have the comfort of knowing that should you need them, they are there… even in the middle of the night. Besides, they aren’t exactly going out to the clubs either, you know.

My daughter, be glad that you have the desire to be better. It means that you have a heart that cares- which too many people lack these days. And you ARE growing (becoming better) every day. You need not berate or judge yourself- I made you and I am proud of you. Dirty dishes and spit up on your shirt will not change the way I see you- which is perfectly. I love you. I created you. You, too, are my child and I wouldn’t change a thing about you.

Now… go back to sleep… I will watch over you.

Hi. I'm Story Lynne, (a.k.a. The Narcissist's Wife). Nice to meet you. I'm the mother of 4 amazing kids, the (soon-to-be-ex) wife of a narcissist, and the author of this blog. I'm also a teacher, a healer, an intuitive empath, and Angel Card Reader. I love fairies, angels, the color pink, anything sparkly, and Legos. (the Elves are my absolute favorites). I also love fixing cars, building shit, and shooting my bow (as in, bow and arrow).

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