One Last Time…

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I know the internet is just full of love-sick musings, and stories, art, and poetry about love. If nothing else, that should serve as a reminder of what we are all here for ๐Ÿ˜‰

 

one last time

I wanted to hold you one last time
Brush my fingertips across the part of you that has tasted my darkest secrets
And fed upon my deepest fears

I wanted to kiss you one last time
So you would know where I stand- Know that I still secretly hope
So you would breathe in the truth, even as you exhaled your pretty lies

I wanted to let you inside one last time
So I could see that look in your eyes-
The one that made me beautiful- made me precious
The one that shattered me
when- like the fire- it was extinguished before dawn

I wanted to give you one last gift
Because I know we are one- My pain is your pain
And though every flick of your knife scars both our backs.
Still… you could never resist
So, I’ll lend you my strength… I’ll remove temptation
And disappear

I wanted to love you one last time
Not for the “humble god” you pretend to be
Nor the monster barely concealed within
But simply for your air- filling my lungs
Your heart pounding my blood to a boil
Your wild dreams- thrilling my sleep
Your most desperate longing- breaking my heart

I wanted to whisper ‘I love you’ one last time
I want to beg you to be brave- to fight
But, my throat burns as I try to form the words
My eyes already sting from the truth

I wanted to forgive you one last time
For believing that you were theย god
For believing that you concealed a monster within you
And, most of all, for being too cowardly to be the man you refused to see

The man, inside of you, that only I knew
The man that I, alone, ever loved.

 

To no more broken hearts
~The Narcissist’s Wife

Hi. I’m Story Lynne, (a.k.a. The Narcissist’s Wife). Nice to meet you. I’m the mother of 4 amazing kids, the (soon-to-be-ex) wife of a narcissist, and the author of this blog. I’m also a teacher, a healer, an intuitive empath, and Angel Card Reader.
I love fairies, angels, the color pink, anything sparkly, and Legos. (the Elves are my absolute favorites). I also love fixing cars, building shit, and shooting my bow (as in, bow and arrow).

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