The Narcissist in a Zombie Apocalypse

Narcissistic Personality Disorder-Narcissism
Here is a topic you probably haven’t thought about very often… OK- you probably haven't thought about it at all. But, recently, I’ve had cause to think deeply about this particular topic. What would happen during a zombie apocalypse? Where the hell would I be, if I were with my narcissist when it happened? I’ll tell you where I’d be... dead. That’s where I’d be. If you haven’t left your narcissist yet, then let me urge you to do so, if for no other reason than you don’t want to die during a zombie apocalypse, do you? (more…)
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What A Narcissistic Tantrum Looks Like

Narcissistic Personality Disorder-Narcissism
My husband has a major throat infection. Tonsillitis, says the ER doctor we had to visit two nights ago. His throat is so swollen that he can't eat, or even breathe, without major pain. I feel sorry for him. I know how much that sucks. I had that same type of infection take hold of my throat, when I was about 19. It was painful enough that the distant memory of it is still quite vivid in my mind. I do not envy his circumstance. My husband has taken his antibiotics, and his Tylenol. Still, he is miserable. Of course he is. Throat infections, and sore throats, etc. are all physical manifestations of a energetic "illness". [All physical dis-eases are. But, that's beside the point]. In this case, the underlying problem is unexpressed anger.…
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How to Tell if the Man You Love Hates You

Narcissistic Abuse
I have had the misfortune of falling in love with a man, who say can look into my eyes and say "I love you", even while just beneath his surface lurks a vicious parasite, filled with hate. A killer of dreams. A raper of souls. A breaker of hearts. A self-loathing man who violently envies everything I am and, hates me for it. Are you in the same boat? This is how to tell if the man you love hates you. As much as it kills me to acknowledge it... there are predators in this world. Real-life vampires, who feed off your pain and suffering. Drink it in, like fresh blood, but are never, EVER satisfied. There are monsters out there- who would feast on the loving devotion of innocent (well, more like…
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Surviving as a Narcissist’s Wife

Diary of A Narcissist's Wife
If you're in a relationship with a narcissist, then honestly, my heart goes out to you. The full title of this post is really, surviving as a narcissist's wife isn't easy... but that was too long (LOL). Being in a narcissistically abusive relationship is probably one of the most painful life experiences you could imagine. In fact, the common wisdom, for women (and men, too...but since I am a woman and the majority of narcissists are men, I write from the perspective of the female target) in this type of relationship, is to get out. To run and never look back. But, that's not always the best option, logically speaking, and sometimes, leaving creates more danger than it alleviates. Also, I'm of the mind that divorce isn't always the magic pill that…
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Has Narcissistic Abuse Destroyed My Executive Function?

Diary of A Narcissist's Wife
I've been awake all night. Literally. I have not slept yet, and it's 8:49 AM. I tried to write, but all I managed to type was two shitty paragraphs that I ended up 'selecting all', and then deleting. What.the hell?? I have no idea what is going on here? Seriously! The sheer physical logic of this is incomprehensible. I don't think it's even possible to sit in front of a keyboard for 8 hours, and only write two freaking paragraphs- regardless of their level of shittiness. I'm boggled! I'm stuck. I have no idea what the hell is going on...but I'm like a woolly mammoth, trapped in a tar pit. See, I've got ridiculous amounts of inspiration right now, it keeps coming, and coming, to me...like it's being directly downloaded into my mind,…
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